[ why stop when she's started ] I've been feeling incredibly guilty and self-conscious this whole week, and with the new arrivals coming in today I thought maybe something to calm myself down would help.
I think it'll be harder to get me drunk here... at least compared to the other side. But I have been sorta avoiding the beer since the trial... after I got Zagreus killed. I've been feeling awful about it since.
[ ...that's understandable? don't be nice to her, she'll tear up again. but i rolled a 1 and i'm going insane because what does this mean. chandra truly just has to suffer with this ]
How can I not? I wouldn't have to watch him slowly die, watch the life leave his eyes. I held back enough to not cause too much harm to you at Execution, but then you showed up dead and I started to worry I was partly to blame...
[ these confessions really are just flying out, so much she's struggling a bit to breathe help. she probably hasn't let go of his hand from earlier so she's just going to hold both of his now.
she's sniffling, but, suddenly a thought comes across ] Maybe I should get another drink? Doing Just Fine might help--
Scaramouche chose me as his target as a matter of respect. It had nothing to do with you, or my physical state—if anything, it was the opposite.
[very funny though that scaramouche stayed for that entire execution as part of his murder plans against chandra but it's fine uriel doesn't have to know that in part because chandra icly doesn't]
[ you are trapped here, that's what this handholding is. no, it's just impulse, she just wants to hold his hand so she will. as if it will bring some comfort to her. ]
It helps, sometimes.
[ sometimes.... 90% of the time it doesn't. but she frowns at him, looking doubtful at what he says. AND ALSO MURDER PLANS FROM EXECUTION WATCH?? STOP THAT'S SO FUCKED UP, SHE WOULD'VE WISHED SHE NEVER ASKED HIM TO KILL HER HELP. ]
[SOMETIMES YOU (IF YOU'RE SCARA) WATCH AN EXECUTION TO ANALYZE YOUR FUTURE VICTIM'S FIGHTING APPARENTLY help]
Well, I wouldn't be surprised if he withheld some of his reasons, but yes—I asked him if he picked me because he wrongly thought I'd be an easy target, since Akira was bothering me about it before.
[chandra really needed to affirm that he was right and akira was wrong before dying,]
But he based his decision in part on who he thought would make for the most entertaining fight.
[ THAT IS INSANE SHE WOULD HATE THAT i hope she never finds out cause maybe she will try and kick that boy's butt a bit after all. now i have to suffer with this ooc knowledge. ]
Entertaining fight...
[ she looks down, brows furrowed, squeezing his hands. like when you squish a cat's beans. betrayal for forgetting our romantic stab. ]
...He and Childe are a bit similar in that aspect, aren't they?
[STOP I REMEMBERED OUR ROMANTIC STAB BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO ASSIGN YOU TALKING ABOUT IT]
Well, to clarify—his reasons for setting out that night to begin with had more to do with him being tired of sitting around, waiting. He was going to kill someone, even if it wasn't me.
But yes, it's little wonder that they keep getting into fights with each other.
[ DIDN'T WANT TO ASSIGN ME DJHGDFHJ me claiming it and running ]
With this week's effects, and how things have been going lately, it makes some sense someone would start to get antsy but.
[ it's that look in her eyes when she looks at Chandra, even though she doesn't say it. it shouldn't have been chandra? that's all. but she raises both their hands up in front of them suddenly. ]
--You owe me a new promise after you broke our old one. [ he had no control over it ]
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Only now and then... why?
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But that's all!
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... I was thinking Inner Peace or Health of Mind, but are you just straight-up drunk?
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--Both of those! How'd you know?!
[ yeah ]
I think it'll be harder to get me drunk here... at least compared to the other side. But I have been sorta avoiding the beer since the trial... after I got Zagreus killed. I've been feeling awful about it since.
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... Well, that's understandable, I suppose. Though you shouldn't need to keep beating yourself up over it.
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How can I not? I wouldn't have to watch him slowly die, watch the life leave his eyes. I held back enough to not cause too much harm to you at Execution, but then you showed up dead and I started to worry I was partly to blame...
[ these confessions really are just flying out, so much she's struggling a bit to breathe help. she probably hasn't let go of his hand from earlier so she's just going to hold both of his now.
she's sniffling, but, suddenly a thought comes across ] Maybe I should get another drink? Doing Just Fine might help--
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Stop drinking. It's not helping you.
[what does he do with this handholding!! damn!!!]
Scaramouche chose me as his target as a matter of respect. It had nothing to do with you, or my physical state—if anything, it was the opposite.
[very funny though that scaramouche stayed for that entire execution as part of his murder plans against chandra but it's fine uriel doesn't have to know that in part because chandra icly doesn't]
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It helps, sometimes.
[ sometimes.... 90% of the time it doesn't. but she frowns at him, looking doubtful at what he says. AND ALSO MURDER PLANS FROM EXECUTION WATCH?? STOP THAT'S SO FUCKED UP, SHE WOULD'VE WISHED SHE NEVER ASKED HIM TO KILL HER HELP. ]
Is that what he told you?
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Well, I wouldn't be surprised if he withheld some of his reasons, but yes—I asked him if he picked me because he wrongly thought I'd be an easy target, since Akira was bothering me about it before.
[chandra really needed to affirm that he was right and akira was wrong before dying,]
But he based his decision in part on who he thought would make for the most entertaining fight.
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Entertaining fight...
[ she looks down, brows furrowed, squeezing his hands. like when you squish a cat's beans. betrayal for forgetting our romantic stab. ]
...He and Childe are a bit similar in that aspect, aren't they?
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Well, to clarify—his reasons for setting out that night to begin with had more to do with him being tired of sitting around, waiting. He was going to kill someone, even if it wasn't me.
But yes, it's little wonder that they keep getting into fights with each other.
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With this week's effects, and how things have been going lately, it makes some sense someone would start to get antsy but.
[ it's that look in her eyes when she looks at Chandra, even though she doesn't say it. it shouldn't have been chandra? that's all. but she raises both their hands up in front of them suddenly. ]
--You owe me a new promise after you broke our old one. [ he had no control over it ]
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... I didn't even promise you anything to begin with?
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Promise me now!
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[HE AIN'T A ROMANTIC]
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You trust me, don't you?
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I don't trust you not to make me promise something ridiculous.
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