[ she looks off again, not anything in particular. ]
It was me from the 999th timeline. The world there had ended, had lost everything precious to her. A few comrades had joined in becoming Outers God like her.
She had traversed universes-- timelines, just to chase after and seek revenge on the one responsible for their world end. For having taken someone extremely precious to her.
[ she looks down to her hands. ]
She had come so close to her end, only for it to be ripped away. [ ... ] My power and strength is not comparable to hers, I am not nearly as strong as she is.
[ she had said so right before her apparent death back home as well. ]
...Not just that, but the power of an Outer God is on a different level than that of a Constellation.
[ ... ]
I.. they are memories I have seen before but I... I just felt, all that despair in that moment. All that wrath she held so tightly for centuries. I guess I lost sight of who I was. Whether I was Uriel, the Demon-Like Judge of Fire.
Or the Living Flame.
[ a small, empty laugh. ] I went into a rampage, which is obvious that the bar's destruction was that. Fortunate I did not have my abilities with me then.
You underestimate me if you think I'll get tired of it so easily, Chandra.
[ she meets his gaze, a look more than just simple confidence. ]
For how long I've lived, to the kinds of Constellations and archangels I surround myself with, you are both very different... and familiar. In the end, you'll always be someone I'm glad to have met.
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... Fine. Same as always—it's not as though there's any reason to be anything else around here.
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... Fair enough. [ ... ]
I never told you what memory I had on the night that Zagreus died, did I? It was a memory of mine... but not personally my own.
[ that's where her train of thought is. ] But of another version of me.
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Another version of you?
[he doesn't sound confused, at least—just prompting.]
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[ she looks off again, not anything in particular. ]
It was me from the 999th timeline. The world there had ended, had lost everything precious to her. A few comrades had joined in becoming Outers God like her.
She had traversed universes-- timelines, just to chase after and seek revenge on the one responsible for their world end. For having taken someone extremely precious to her.
[ she looks down to her hands. ]
She had come so close to her end, only for it to be ripped away. [ ... ] My power and strength is not comparable to hers, I am not nearly as strong as she is.
[ she had said so right before her apparent death back home as well. ]
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he listens to this, something flickering in his eyes before he shoves it down.]
... Despair and rage have a way of empowering people, I suppose. [...] What happened exactly then, when you experienced her memory?
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[ ... ]
I.. they are memories I have seen before but I... I just felt, all that despair in that moment. All that wrath she held so tightly for centuries. I guess I lost sight of who I was. Whether I was Uriel, the Demon-Like Judge of Fire.
Or the Living Flame.
[ a small, empty laugh. ] I went into a rampage, which is obvious that the bar's destruction was that. Fortunate I did not have my abilities with me then.
[ she would have burned everything down. ]
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there are a few brutally honest, dickish things he could say right now, but he manages to hold his tongue and refrain.]
Destructive tempers are starting to seem like a pattern in deities dealing in hellfire...
[but anyway]
Poor luck for you, though, receiving that memory at that time.
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In my case, my Modifier is as it is for a reason.
[ demon-like....
a quiet hum. ] It was unfortunate timing. I was stunned the first time I saw it, fighting back against her. This time I was not as lucky.
[ thinks back to home. ]
..I never expected to run into another version of myself. And an Outer God, at that.
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And then Zagreus got caught up in the crossfire.
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Yes.. Experiencing those memories happened actually as he was dying, it was... a bit of a trigger, of sorts.
[ hence she wasn't in the right mind to try and save him. she was lost by then. ]
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he sighs.]
Well, such is the double-edged sword of emotions.
[i'm sorry that chandra cannot come up with a single kind thing to say here help]
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Somehow, that's how it tends to end up.
[ but. ] I appreciate you listening to me.
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[ amusingly. ] Anyways, I got to thinking about it again, after considering our options of all of us being stuck here eternally.
[ what her fate would be, compared to the Uriel of the 999th turn. ]
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Do you think eternity here will drive you mad?
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... No. Not when I have you and everyone else to keep me in line.
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I can't say that's a responsibility I asked for... but we'll see what happens once this session is over.
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It's less responsibility and... [ a pause, thinking ] more that... your presence here is enough of a reminder for myself?
[ ... ]
... Something like that.
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[ she meets his gaze, a look more than just simple confidence. ]
For how long I've lived, to the kinds of Constellations and archangels I surround myself with, you are both very different... and familiar. In the end, you'll always be someone I'm glad to have met.
[ a comrade to have made. ]