[ there's a brief moment of relief, losing some tension when he says he knows. except she's still afraid, that he'll betray her thoughts, go against what he says. even if she would like to think he would have done so... so much sooner. ]
I understand. [ at the time, she had a distant thought, that some would say to her that emotions are more trouble than they're worth. in this case, it backfired on her in an attempt to relieve someone of it. ]
I'll refrain from it happening again. [ even though her heart aches a little. carefully, she reaches out to very, very lightly grip his sleeve with her fingers. it's so featherlight that even the smallest of nudges will brush her off. ] Stay with me?
[emotions are more trouble than they're worth, sometimes. chandra would be a hypocrite to say otherwise; it's not as though he's always chosen to live with them.
but in the end, that's a choice he has to make for himself—someone else doing it for him feels like a criticism against him, even if he understands why.]
[ it's such a difference with Uriel, who lives her life around those she loves and cares for. falling back on her emotions. but there is some backlash to it, and she of course knows this.
her hand raises from his sleeve to cup his cheek, so she can press a kiss to his other cheek and offer him a sympathetic smile. ]
You really put up with a lot of me. [ of course, she's always known this, ever since that night of the trial with her confession. that day of her execution. he's done a lot for her. ] I hope that I can properly repay you.
[ nuzzles him a little. we l*ve affection week, even if uriel is already affectionate as is. ]
I learn from my mistakes! [ but, she'll meet his gaze with a little wry smile. ] Though, if it stems from my feelings, it'll only be a little bit of trouble?
Like Zagreus, your story is not one I've heard of back in my world, despite being connected to familiar names and modifiers I recognize. [ so hades and persephone etc for zagreus. indra and agni etc for chandra. ]
So I'm sure the other members in < Eden > would think I'd completely lost it if they knew.
Is that so? It wasn't unheard of back home for gods and nastikas to have relations with humans. [a beat] Though any relationship between beings with drastically different lifespans is typically doomed to tragedy.
a more well-adjusted, or at least someone not a dick, would probably return the sentiment right now. unfortunately, chandra is neither of those things! but staying quiet is his own form of respect, because he doesn't say what he doesn't mean, and ultimately he doesn't think he's capable of straightforward love. not because of an absence of romantic affection, but it feels dishonest to simply tell someone "i love you", when it comes with so many caveats.
all the more so to someone who has never seen the way the fifth zen gods became warped, dragging themselves back down from the top of the world. (the way that they all understood that someone like indra was no longer capable of sincere love; chandra isn't at his level and never will be, but at the end of the day, he's still the one closest in nature.)
he mulls over his words for a few moments, before—]
... It's not unappreciated, but Zagreus is right there, you know.
[ had this been someone else, maybe that silence would have been overbearing, have her stumbling on her words-- briefly, maybe wishing she hadn't said so in the first place. however, she's never regretted how she feels. wouldn't take it back. maybe that is why she felt she could say it, even if knows it more than likely will not be returned.
because Uriel is honest about her feelings. it will not change the love, the care, she feels for another. she will not force it upon them though, it will stay with her in her heart, cherished. she has witnessed loved ones go through terrible fates and still has stood by them. this would be no different.
...a soft, quiet laugh escapes her briefly at that. her hands squeeze his a little, meeting his gaze now, an affectionate and fond look. ]
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I understand. [ at the time, she had a distant thought, that some would say to her that emotions are more trouble than they're worth. in this case, it backfired on her in an attempt to relieve someone of it. ]
I'll refrain from it happening again. [ even though her heart aches a little. carefully, she reaches out to very, very lightly grip his sleeve with her fingers. it's so featherlight that even the smallest of nudges will brush her off. ] Stay with me?
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but in the end, that's a choice he has to make for himself—someone else doing it for him feels like a criticism against him, even if he understands why.]
... All right.
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her hand raises from his sleeve to cup his cheek, so she can press a kiss to his other cheek and offer him a sympathetic smile. ]
You really put up with a lot of me. [ of course, she's always known this, ever since that night of the trial with her confession. that day of her execution. he's done a lot for her. ] I hope that I can properly repay you.
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Yes, and you don't make it easy. [...] You don't need to repay me, though.
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I'm sure I don't. [ she of course knows she can be very Stubborn™. ] I'd say I do.
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You say that, but I'm expecting you to inevitably cause trouble again...
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I learn from my mistakes! [ but, she'll meet his gaze with a little wry smile. ] Though, if it stems from my feelings, it'll only be a little bit of trouble?
[ maybe. ]
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Your feelings are why it'll be trouble in the first place.
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For the God of Darkness to be cared for so by an Archangel... it's a bit funny for a story.
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[it's y'all's worlds that think darkness is edgy, chandra is just disliked by humans as a god because he's a dick]
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Like Zagreus, your story is not one I've heard of back in my world, despite being connected to familiar names and modifiers I recognize. [ so hades and persephone etc for zagreus. indra and agni etc for chandra. ]
So I'm sure the other members in < Eden > would think I'd completely lost it if they knew.
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Hardly any more noteworthy than a deity getting attached to a mortal, if you ask me, and that happens often enough.
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It does not happen so much back where I'm from. Outside the minor few that care for their Incarnation.
[ of course that care is different from uriel's case in this situation but it's Fine. ]
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[ which is said a bit sadly... also me voice uriel's love roots in tragedy. ]
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[uriel your tragedy love roots]
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[ carefully, she takes his hand from where it is so she can hold one in both of hers. looking down at it. ]
Though, for me, I am content enough to just love.
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A very you answer.
[uriel really just taking his hand out of his pocket but he'll permit this.]
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Is it? [ a bit more softer ] It's about how I feel about you.
[ content enough to just like, to love. she would have been fine with not saying it out loud, keep it to herself for the next eternal who knows, but ]
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a more well-adjusted, or at least someone not a dick, would probably return the sentiment right now. unfortunately, chandra is neither of those things! but staying quiet is his own form of respect, because he doesn't say what he doesn't mean, and ultimately he doesn't think he's capable of straightforward love. not because of an absence of romantic affection, but it feels dishonest to simply tell someone "i love you", when it comes with so many caveats.
all the more so to someone who has never seen the way the fifth zen gods became warped, dragging themselves back down from the top of the world. (the way that they all understood that someone like indra was no longer capable of sincere love; chandra isn't at his level and never will be, but at the end of the day, he's still the one closest in nature.)
he mulls over his words for a few moments, before—]
... It's not unappreciated, but Zagreus is right there, you know.
[GET BETTER TASTE, URIEL.]
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because Uriel is honest about her feelings. it will not change the love, the care, she feels for another. she will not force it upon them though, it will stay with her in her heart, cherished. she has witnessed loved ones go through terrible fates and still has stood by them. this would be no different.
...a soft, quiet laugh escapes her briefly at that. her hands squeeze his a little, meeting his gaze now, an affectionate and fond look. ]
He is but, I am right here with you.
[ HER TASTE IS!!! BAD!!!! ]
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all right her gazing into his eyes like that with that look is getting embarrassing, so he's looking away now. bye.]
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SHE'S TRYING NOT TO LAUGH, but she tilts her head, smile teasing now. ]
Chandra?
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You really are...
[uggggh]
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Hmmm?
[ :)? ]
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