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[ demon-like judge of fire. ] ([personal profile] reignite) wrote2023-02-05 03:46 pm
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
[he allows her, though his gaze then flickers to a point beyond her than at her eyes.]

I suppose it was about as good as it got with a group with messy.
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 02:38 am (UTC)(link)
Unless the proposal changes at the last minute, then yes... in theory.

[imagine if the representative screws everyone over.]
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
[if uriel had wished for anything less, chandra would've been disappointed in her. in the end, for him, duty always comes first, and he expects the same from others. he knows she has something to protect back home.

he glances down at their joined hands, before he finally looks into her eyes proper.

...

it doesn't seem like he knows what to say.]
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
[...

he would rather just say nothing. he wants to say nothing at all and leave this conversation, because he has known all along how most people would react to it. but since things have reached this point, there's no getting out of it, is there?]


... Uriel. [his tone is quiet, but steady.] I need you to promise me—that you'll respect my decision, no matter what.
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 04:09 am (UTC)(link)
[he's quiet for a bit, as though deciding how to word this.]

... I told you before, that when a timeline is deemed hopeless and discarded, it inevitably turns into nothingness. [...] And, as part of the nature of the universe, it's my duty to remain to the end—and to disappear with it.

[or, to put it in another way,]

My world is gone. In that regard, I might not be so different from the 999th version of you... but rather than be driven by vengeance or anger, the fact of the matter is that for me, existing is a disgrace.

... So, I don't want to be saved. [and his wish is—] Please don't try to.

[he wouldn't try to escape to another timeline, for a variety of pragmatic and personal reasons. and the thought of going to someone else's world brings no sense of peace and hope; only the creeping dread and exhaustion of someone who knows that, after everything that he is has been ripped out of him, trying to start over is the naive idea of those who don't understand what it's like to be a god. (he could endure eternity for the sake of his duty. without it, the notion is little more than torture.)

ultimately, he's known from the start that he would one day break uriel's heart. after all, despite everything, he is a cruel and cold-hearted being, and the truth is that he is not someone who can be saved by love.]
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 05:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ZETSU!!!!!!!!!!

chandra lets her take his hand—lets her do what she wants, like he has so often. the closest thing to a kindness he could give her, when a part of him was always afraid to initiate anything more. it would've been kinder still to reject her as soon as she confessed her feelings, rather than lead her on in a relationship that couldn't last. still, chandra is selfish sometimes (all the time?), and he thought... well, he thought they might have more time than this.

enough time for her feelings to fade, maybe. at least enough time for them to grow complacent, for her to find other things to attach herself to, so that the hurt would be less.

but things never work out the way chandra wants them to, in the end.

...

closing his eyes for a moment, he kisses the back of her hand that holds his, before leaning back again.]


... You're an idiot.

[to the very end.

though for all that he wishes that he had simply vanished to begin with—it wasn't so bad, he thinks, to have met her.

dying via the collapse of the universe is, in a sense, an utterly impersonal way to go. (though it was always how he was going to disappear, one way or another; when a god can die for good only when their jurisdiction is destroyed, that's the same as saying their existence ends when they're no longer needed.) when it finally reached him, it was in a moment of respite from fighting a hopeless war, alone and tired. if he could have a choice in the matter, rather than in indifference, he'd like to go out either hated or loved.

... it's a surprise to find that it's the latter, after all.]
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
[I'LL ZETSU!! YOU ALL I LIKE

he doesn't know if spending more time—now with this guillotine hanging over their heads—is a mercy or stabbing the wound further. but as always, all he can do is acquiesce.]


... All right.

[whether tonight is all they have left, or if things fail tomorrow and it turns out that they're stuck here for longer yet.

though he lets out a breathy laugh, mirthless.]


But I expect there are others who'll want to see you.
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 06:29 am (UTC)(link)
[as her touch drifts over him, he closes his eyes again. there's still the occasional flicker of shadow that lingers in the air around them—albeit lesser than when uriel first found him—as though the manifestation of his emotions bleeding out.]

... Well, the afterlife has always been where beings, in death, can be granted a moment of selfish thinking.
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 06:48 am (UTC)(link)
[he bkinks on reflex. at her words, though, he leans his head slightly to one side, sighing.]

... I haven't denied you yet, have I?

[though perhaps that's cruel to say, knowing that he is in fact denying what she undoubtedly wishes she could ask for.]
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 07:37 am (UTC)(link)
... You should be honoured by that.

[in the end, all he can do to cope with the moment is return to his usual attitude.]
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 04:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[he lets her, and he'll kiss back, just as light.]

Haha... well, then I'll accept that honour as well.

[he hears that hum, and he thinks of what he and lavi—well-meaning, clueless lavi—talked about just earlier tonight.

i just think it's a shame, is all. that i won't see more of yours and everyone's stories.

not everything will have a satisfactory ending.

yeah, i know. ... it might not be happy, but i think it can still be satisfactory.

... i guess so. after all, that's up to everyone's individual idea of it.


this story isn't a happy one, and cannot be—the "end" chandra seeks for himself is different from uriel's. (and uriel might realize now, perhaps, why chandra asked the things he did.) all he can do now is try and give uriel some semblance of closure, so that this story at least won't be an unfinished one.]
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[personal profile] astika 2023-04-02 06:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[everything is fleeting—though in the end, if one were to look at the bigger picture, that can be said of anything in life. when eternity stretches on, rendering everything into dust, all you can do is try and find meaning in these moments. (even if it's not enough to sustain an existence with his inherent purpose ripped out of him.)

at this point, it might just be licking each other's wounds; placing a bandage over a wound that won't heal. but that's what everything amounts to, really, until beings like them find their end.

so yeah, they will just keep kissing in satan's house ig. sorry satan.]