[ help. it's cute in a way, that he can't look at her as he answers. in an endearing kind of way. ]
You shouldn't look at me with feelings like that. You have a whole life ahead of you to live. [ well. ] ...Dead life?
In any case, I can tell Kon cares deeply about you. It wouldn't hurt to consider those feelings a bit more regarding him. [ is she setting up? no. not at all. i don't know what you're talking about. ]
...I can say I like someone too, you know. [ she looks away when she says this, so even if Lavi looks her way he can't see her expression. ] I feel the same way about two people.
[He places a hand on his chest like he's nursing his heartbreak... the boy's got jokes, though he falters a little at that next part. STOP. NO ONE HAS TAUGHT HIM ABOUT POLYGAMY. KON IS ALREADY WITH SOMEONE.
but more importantly, he turns his head to look at Uriel who's already looking away. is he surprised that Uriel likes someone? no, but he is a little surprised that she trusts him enough to say. it makes him feel soft...]
[STOP maybe she does have to since lavi is incredibly stupid in matters like this,
Lavi considers the question.]
...You're real affectionate with a lot of people, and caring too. But it feels more like you're protecting us. But with Zag, it feels more equal? Like you can be yourself when you're around him.
...Yes, I can be myself around him. I can be myself around another person too.
But maybe that is a flaw. Being capable of loving someone that much, because I will do anything to help them.
[ her wings lower from the tight fold they were against her back, emitting a sigh. ]
He did say the same to me. [ her hand brushes some of her hair back, head tilting. ] But it is not something he can commit to, which I understood and agreed with. He has so much to fix back home, a lot that needs tending to, and that should come first.
[ she sounds to be speaking of an entirely different thing though. still looking off, but she finally turns to look at lavi, with a bittersweet smile. ] ...It isn't entirely painful. I don't mind loving others. Though, like you, I think it may be better to keep it to myself.
[ her smile softens at the mention of him. ] Mm, he is. I've offered to help aid him once I'm done with tending to my own world. [ a small laugh. ] Assuming we ever go back, that is.
A little bit. Even if I did, I can only imagine they would reject it. So, I don't mind keeping it to myself.
[ even if she looks like she considers the thought of letting it out. ]
Perhaps, but until then we're all stuck here in this eternal damnation. [ a brief pause. ] If an opportunity comes up though, I would like to help him get back at least. As well as any others.
[ like you, she doesn't say. but it's implied. assuming Lavi would like to return back home. ]
[REJECTING URIEL... WHO WOULD DARE... unfortunately Lavi can see the person in his minds' eye doing this incredibly stupid thing, this only reinforces his suspicion.]
...I hope whoever the other person is -- they're someone who can help you too, Uri.
[because even Uriel can't be an endless source of comfort and help for others. Shouldn't there be people out there who'll do the same for her too?
Lavi would volunteer, but he knows his own weaknesses best. Maybe that's why his feelings for her are insignificant in the grand scheme of things. Does it count as affection when you're not willing to commit all the way?]
[ say it out loud coward. confirm your suspicions.
however, a genuinely warm smile shows at Lavi's words, reaching to cup his cheek with a light pat. ]
Long as I am able to have their company, it is enough for me, Junior. I don't need any more than that.
[ who wouldn't want to love and be loved in return? but with Uriel, even if her source of affection, of love, move in a different path and road herself... she's fine with just supporting them in the end. she knows she'll be fine. having them in her life, she really could not ask for more. ]
[face pat.... his face breaks into a smile, warm and a little wry.]
Sure, but I still think you deserve more.
[Uriel is like Allen in that way. Always loving, and never asking anything in return. Though where they differ, Lavi thinks, is that Uriel's love isn't rooted in self-flagellation, in tragedy.]
I guess that could be my Story for you. 'Someone Who Wants Uriel To Be Loved'...? Is that how it works?
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he'll just. flop over on his back and stare at the sky. he can't have this conversation while looking at Uriel, it's too embarrassing]
I did like Tuuri a little. [but he got scared because she was nice] And Kon, kinda. Not sure if that was cause of the love drink though...
And I like you too! In that crushing on someone who's way out of my league kind of way.
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You shouldn't look at me with feelings like that. You have a whole life ahead of you to live. [ well. ] ...Dead life?
In any case, I can tell Kon cares deeply about you. It wouldn't hurt to consider those feelings a bit more regarding him. [ is she setting up? no. not at all. i don't know what you're talking about. ]
...I can say I like someone too, you know. [ she looks away when she says this, so even if Lavi looks her way he can't see her expression. ] I feel the same way about two people.
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but more importantly, he turns his head to look at Uriel who's already looking away. is he surprised that Uriel likes someone? no, but he is a little surprised that she trusts him enough to say. it makes him feel soft...]
Is one of 'em Zagreus?
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a small laugh leaves her, but she still doesn't look his way. should she even be surprised he's giving zagreus's name? ]
Is it that obvious?
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Lavi considers the question.]
...You're real affectionate with a lot of people, and caring too. But it feels more like you're protecting us. But with Zag, it feels more equal? Like you can be yourself when you're around him.
[...]
That, and he said he liked you too.
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But maybe that is a flaw. Being capable of loving someone that much, because I will do anything to help them.
[ her wings lower from the tight fold they were against her back, emitting a sigh. ]
He did say the same to me. [ her hand brushes some of her hair back, head tilting. ] But it is not something he can commit to, which I understood and agreed with. He has so much to fix back home, a lot that needs tending to, and that should come first.
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...It sounds painful. [truthfully] But it doesn't feel like a flaw. People always shine the most when they love.
[the best parts of humanity come from that kind of love, he thinks. it just hurts more for the person doing the loving.]
I'm glad you guys got to talk though. Plus, he's a capable guy. I can't imagine him not fixing something he sets his mind to.
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[ she sounds to be speaking of an entirely different thing though. still looking off, but she finally turns to look at lavi, with a bittersweet smile. ] ...It isn't entirely painful. I don't mind loving others. Though, like you, I think it may be better to keep it to myself.
[ her smile softens at the mention of him. ] Mm, he is. I've offered to help aid him once I'm done with tending to my own world. [ a small laugh. ] Assuming we ever go back, that is.
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...I guess I'd be a hypocrite if I told you to let 'em out. huh.
[to perhaps, the second person Uriel mentioned. Though Lavi wonders if that second person is who he suspects,]
Dunno about going back... But I think our chances are better if you two are working together.
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A little bit. Even if I did, I can only imagine they would reject it. So, I don't mind keeping it to myself.
[ even if she looks like she considers the thought of letting it out. ]
Perhaps, but until then we're all stuck here in this eternal damnation. [ a brief pause. ] If an opportunity comes up though, I would like to help him get back at least. As well as any others.
[ like you, she doesn't say. but it's implied. assuming Lavi would like to return back home. ]
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...I hope whoever the other person is -- they're someone who can help you too, Uri.
[because even Uriel can't be an endless source of comfort and help for others. Shouldn't there be people out there who'll do the same for her too?
Lavi would volunteer, but he knows his own weaknesses best. Maybe that's why his feelings for her are insignificant in the grand scheme of things. Does it count as affection when you're not willing to commit all the way?]
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however, a genuinely warm smile shows at Lavi's words, reaching to cup his cheek with a light pat. ]
Long as I am able to have their company, it is enough for me, Junior. I don't need any more than that.
[ who wouldn't want to love and be loved in return? but with Uriel, even if her source of affection, of love, move in a different path and road herself... she's fine with just supporting them in the end. she knows she'll be fine. having them in her life, she really could not ask for more. ]
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Sure, but I still think you deserve more.
[Uriel is like Allen in that way. Always loving, and never asking anything in return. Though where they differ, Lavi thinks, is that Uriel's love isn't rooted in self-flagellation, in tragedy.]
I guess that could be my Story for you. 'Someone Who Wants Uriel To Be Loved'...? Is that how it works?
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[ love rooted in deep tragedy is uriel's life. ]
I couldn't say for sure, but that is not the story we share from our connection.
[ there are words that appear, flickering with a warm energy, [ The story, 'Stories Born Anew from History' is watching curiously. ]
a treat for lavi to see. ]
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Lavi perks up, oh!!!! he immediately starts waving at the words!!!]
It can see me, right? Since it's watching? Hey! [HEY HEY
this is really the energy of someone waving frantically at a cute dog]
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[ Uriel watches it all on curiously, stiffling a laugh. help she hasn't had someone react this way but the words flicker and change
[ The story, 'Stories Born Anew from History' is very curious about the Bookman Lavi. ]
Uriel props her cheek in her hand. ] Stories are surprisingly sentient.